My mind body spirit shift. Deep healing on all levels. In recovery and the 12 steps we talk about doing a 4th and 5th step. Making a fearless moral inventory of ourselves and sharing it with another. So hear was my experience and what it led to. I was molested as a child by a man. Sexual trauma. I was born with cerebral palsy and had doctors tell me I'd never be normal and would die younger because my organs would give out from over exhaustion. Trauma. I saw spirits and was highly empathic as a child so doctors dual diagnosis and more trauma. I never felt seen or understood. I was always on opiates and pills for my body and mental "illness" or so they said. Trauma. I became an addict. I was broken in every way. Because I believed what others had told me and believed the lies I told myself. I was taking a shower one day and fell to the floor of the shower and started to cry. Intensely I started to love myself like never before. I held my legs and cried out all the lies. That I was flawed or broken. I forgave myself for all the lies I ever told myself and oh how I cried. For believing the doctors and all of it. I forgave and cried. I didn't know what was coming out of rhe shower head or my eyes. I cried. I held myself and kissed myself and started to feel divinity come over me. I started to feel pride in my legs. They were mine and mine alone. What a gift! I forgave and then felt empowered. When I rose from the floor I felt completely changed. Angelic I had no resentments for anyone that my former self thought had harmed me. I had a complete mind body spirit shift. I've never done a 4th or 5th step to this day like traditional 12 step recovery and that was nearly 4 years ago. Many have thought I would relapes not doing it the "right way". They were wrong. I was a I.V. drug user with over 3 decades of drug addiction and none of that had power over me anymore. There are many ways to heal. My truth is I found a way that worked for me. With love and encouragement I hope and pray you find a way that works for you!