***Trigger Alert ****
One evening mom you go out to the shed to the tanning bed, like any other night. Only this one was much different for me. Your husband and my step father decides to ask me if he can just touch it. At the 16 years old I am puzzled by the question. Is he seriously asking me this right now?!
Speechless I sit and say nothing. Hoping and praying this is just a dream and I will wake up any minute. Waiting for what seems like an eternity for you to come back inside, but finally I hear the door open. I sigh with relief… I can breathe again.
Nothing came of this.
Obviously just a mistake. I get up and rush to my room. I don’t come out again that night.
The next day comes and I have barely slept. So worried what will happen next time.
Will there be a next time?!
Will he actually decide to touch me?!
Will he do more?!
What can I do?
Do I say something?
Do I leave it alone?
Will it just end there or will it go further?
I don’t want to be a statistic where I am abused and my mother lets it happen.
No my mom is different though. I know she will believe me. Then she will leave his abusive Ass once and for all to save her daughter!
HA what a joke for me to think she would do such a thing. After I get the courage to tell you what he says. You call him for him to only DENY it OF COURSE HE DOES. HE ISNT GONNA SAY I WANT YOUR DAUGHTER BECAUSE SHE IS YOUNG AND BEAUTIFUL AND ONLY 9 years younger than I am!
Of course he lies to you and says I’m lying because I want to cause issues, but when have I ever lied about something like this?! Never and never would I.
So no you blame me and now I know what will come next!! I won’t stand for it. I refuse to do this anymore. I leave and move in with my boyfriend bc he lives with his uncle now. What could go Wrong??! So a few months later what do you know I am pregnant now 17. Sound familiar yet?! Yeah, but I tried to get back into my previous high school again that you took me out of to move far away from to keep me from my boyfriend. Only I can’t enroll because I need a parent to get me into school.
So yes now I’m a high school pregnant drop out at 17 who had a 4.25 gpa. Wow much good it did me now. I had to wait 6 months to enroll into wake tech for my adult high school diploma when I only needed 2 more credits to graduate. I have the baby and within 6 months he put hands on me for the first and only time. So he says! I move out and come to stay with you mom.
Only I don’t feel comfortable being there with HIM alone!! So I leave and believe the lies about never hitting me again. He didn’t for awhile, but then here he goes again.
Blames me for hitting me bc I don’t listen I can’t do right. It’s always my fault.
I try to do what he wants.
I try to do right so he won’t hit me, but I just never do right it seems, because it gets more and more frequently and worse and worse.
Next thing I know he has me selling my body to support us. How can he do that if he truly loves me like he says he does?
Then hit me like I am just nothing to him. He will eventually kill me if I don’t leave him alone. He gets locked up thank you GOD!!
Now I can be free!!!
YESSSS finally I leave him for the LAST time and start my new life!!! Free from him and his abuse!!! Finally!!!
From an Anonymous Heart
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